Almost Impossible Chapter 18

Chapter 18

Edwards POV

It was the last thing I could have ever imagined happening. It was the last thing I thought was possible. Here I had been worried about what I would turn her into; never in all my years would I have ever thought he would turn her into a monster too.

I guess the only real way to look at it is that, at least she is still somewhat human. She can grow old with him and have babies. Only now, they really would be puppies. She wouldn't have to fight the constant urge to kill an innocent person, she would be protecting them instead.


Just because I could find a few decent points, doesn't mean that I was ok with it. Doesn't mean I don't miss her everyday that I don't get to see her, touch her, smell her, or have the peacefulness and the comfort of not worrying about what I might hear from her thoughts.

I know she didn't have a choice, but that doesn't make it any easier. The hardest part is that I have no choice but to let her go. I still couldn't believe it though. She imprinted on him. If it didn't hurt so badly, I might have laughed.

I couldn't get that image of her phasing out of my head, I honestly hadn't believed it until I saw that. Especially when she had me pinned to her truck, growling at me like she wanted to rip me apart. For a moment, I had thought she was going to and actually hoped she would have, but she looked more scared than anything else and I was scared for her. That was a very painful day.

I hated being in this town without her and I would be perfectly fine not ever coming back. Now when I see this place, I will always think of the beautiful, chocolate brown eyed girl, who made me feel more human than I had ever felt in over a hundred years. The pain from that is worse than anything I had ever felt before.

I know I said once before that I would always watch over her. If it wasn't me she chose, I would watch to see if she would ever change her mind. Watch to make sure he wouldn't either. But it turned out differently, imprints apparently don't change their minds, they can't and she imprinted.

I could say that a million times and it wouldn't make any more sense, or hurt any less.

Even if I had wanted to watch over her, she was always across treaty line, where I'm not allowed to go. When she was at home, someone was watching her there too. So, why should I stay here? It was about time for us to move along anyways, but I would have never imagined it would be this hard. I had to get away, somehow it had to make it all hurt less, even though I've found out in the past that that was wrong. I fought hard to stay away from her since that day she phased and almost attacked me. I was doing really well too.

And yet there I was, all plans changed and I was going back to her once again.


It was about three o'clock in the afternoon when I heard Alice downstairs. Something was wrong, but she wasn't doing anything. I walked down stairs slowly and I realized it wasn't just a normal Alice panic. I tuned into her thoughts and I was horrified.

"When Alice?" I asked her, before I had even reached the bottom step. It's impossible to sneak up on a vampire, but I somehow managed it. She jumped and gasped, wide eyed.

"I-I don't know. I can't tell," she mumbled. That was the thing that really bugged me about her visions. The time and dates were hardly there, only because the ones who had made the decision, hadn't really decided that part yet. Or they were hiding it, which was worse.

"Find out," I growled at her.

The Volturi coming never meant anything good, and I knew why they were coming. Only thing is now, the situation would be worse than before, Bella was completely different and not in the way they wanted.

"What do we do Edward? I mean, things have changed, what could they do?"

Her brain was a confusing mess and if I was able to get a headache, I would have most definitely had one. All she kept thinking about was Bella and the werewolves. She still cared about Bella; she understood what had happened. She was hurt of course, but she knew there was nothing that we could do. The other werewolves she could care less about, but since they were with Bella and would be with her when whatever was happening happened, she worried about that too. That was all I could get out of it all and I tried hard to tune her out.

"I don't know Alice. Even if I did, what am I supposed to do?" I snapped.

She looked stunned, face frozen, eyes fixed on the floor. She just shrugged. Then suddenly her face came to life.

"Alice, I don't think I can do that," I responded to her thoughts.

"Why? You don't care about her enough to even warn her?" she yelled.

"How can I? She's always with them. And of course I still care about her Alice, there will never be a day that I won't, but it hurts too bad to keep putting myself in her way."

"So you're still going to leave?" she asked suddenly.

"Alice, I don't... What am I supposed to do?" I said and my voice cracked. It was one of those moments that was as close to human as I could get. If I could create tears, it would have been hard to hold them in at that moment.

She sighed. "Then I will call her," she said moving over to the phone and I didn't stop her. I normally would have, would have told her to drop it when she was butting into Bella's life, but I was still so confused about what had happened I still had no control over my reactions and how could I really keep something like this from her?

No one answered the phone at her house; I knew she must have been out with them again. I started getting angry, but stopped once Jasper walked into the room.

"What's going on?" he asked, eyeing us both, looking confused.

"Volturi," Alice told him, she had the hardest times keeping her mouth shut, though I didn't know why I was getting angry about it. I knew we had to tell the others anyways.

They went over the who and the when and she described the vision to him. He didn't understand it much either and told her what I did. Find out more.

The others weren't as understanding about this whole Bella phasing thing as Alice and I were. Actually, Carlisle and Esme were, of course, but Esme feels now as though she lost one of her own children. I think they just didn't get it; I couldn't blame them since I didn't either.

Carlisle wishes she would have came and told us herself, but is angry with himself by the way he reacted to her the last time he saw her and thinks that is why she didn't. When I had heard it in his thoughts the next day when I had finally come home he was angry with himself. That was one of many things I admired about Carlisle, not matter how angry something makes him, he remains as calm as always, but he slipped that day. He said he didn't know why he had slipped, but I knew it was because he was worried. He knew Bella wasn't planning on coming back to see us for whatever reasons she had. He feels bad now mainly because she wasn't doing it to be selfish, she was doing it because she was confused and didn't want to hurt us.

Bella was always more afraid of what others would feel about something that had been done to her, worried about other people in danger instead of herself. I tried not to think about her much, about any of it and the others tried not to think about it around me, though they couldn't always stop.

Rosalie on the other hand, well she purposely thought of things to hurt me. She said I was stupid enough to fall for her to begin with, and now I was stupid enough to let it hurt me. I try not to pay much attention to her, that wasn't very hard. Emmett was upset about it, but never let it show in front of Rose, otherwise she would throw a fit. Jasper, well... He never really was clear on how he felt about it. In his mind or out loud. I was ok with that too.

After a few minutes of thinking about all my options, I ran out of them. I used to be able to count on Alice's visions to see when Bella was about to go across treaty line, but now that she was one of them, she saw nothing. It was a little weird though; she could almost see Bella a little more clearly than the rest. The night of her vision, she saw Bella at home, even though she was barely there. Alice knew something wasn't right and now she blames herself, saying she should have warned her. I knew there was no use.

I came to the only other conclusion I had left. Wait at the line for Bella to cross it. She had to eventually. The last I knew she was still living with Charlie. I hated to go there again, wait for her to come across and see the confusion in her eyes. I knew she never expected to see me again, and that just added to the hurt.

I was just about to go to her and I suddenly heard my phone ringing upstairs. Without a second thought, I ran up to answer it. It was a number I didn't recognize, but I didn't let that stop me.

"Edward?" Her voice was just as sweet as before.

"What's wrong?" Her tone was off and I knew the only reason she would be calling me now would because something was wrong.

"Edward, I think we may need your help." Her voice was shaky and scared.

"Bella, what is it?"

"Ha-Has Alice seen anything?" she asked.

How could she know? She couldn't possibly know about the vision, about the Volturi... could she?

"Bella, how... What do you know?" I couldn't think of anything to say.

"Well, that's why I'm calling. We knew something was going to happen, that was what caused me to phase... uh, long story. Anyways, so I spent days thinking about what could be bad enough, and well suddenly today, while finally combining many thoughts together; I realized the Volturi could be the only thing bad enough." She stopped and I could tell she was holding back tears. It was so hard to not drop the phone and run to her as I always had before.

"Yes, Bella. They are coming. Alice got the vision not too long ago." If the situation wasn't so serious I could have found a little humor in the fact that Bella realized the Volturi could be coming before Alice got the vision, but there was nothing humorous about this.

"Oh no," she whispered and paused for a moment. I tried not to listen too hard, but I could tell she was crying by the quickness in her breath. I heard a shuffle with the phone and a deep voice replaced hers.

"Can you meet us somewhere to talk?" Jacob asked, voice filled with hate and disgust; even more than normal.

"Sure. When?"

It was silent again, but I could slightly hear her voice telling him it couldn't be now because she had to get home soon to cook for Charlie soon. It was nice hearing that too much hadn't changed, but I stopped myself from thinking about it. She wasn't mine to think about at all anymore.

"Tonight?" he asked, but I could hear Bella argue and then give in.

"Tonight will be fine."

"The clearing again?" he asked.

I assumed that meant the others were coming too. "Ok."

"Ok, we'll be there as soon as Bella can get out." And he hung up.

I thought about that for a moment. I couldn't really understand why they would want to meet with me, but before I could think about it Alice walked in the room.

"You're meeting them tonight?" she asked, confused.

"Yes. She knows."

"You told her." She sounded relieved.

"No. She knew, that was why she called me."

"What? How did she know? I just-"

"Something about what caused her to change. It meant something bad was coming and I'm guessing it means that they needed more wolves then what they had."

"And she guessed the Volturi?" she asked, still confused, but fighting a small smile.

"She said that they were the worst she could imagine and she knew she had to be right. And she was," I said, still not quite believing any of it.

"Well, she always has been smart. Well, on most things," she mumbled.

"Alice, let's not go into that."

"Sorry. I just miss her."

"I know. Trust me, I know," I said, shaking my head and turning to walk away.

"I'm going with you," she said.

There was no use arguing with Alice. She always knew when and where everyone was going and if she wanted to go, she would. If she wasn't allowed to leave with you, she would go anyways without you. I also knew it would be helpful for her to be there. She could explain for herself what she saw and I knew Bella would like to see her, though I also knew I shouldn't care anymore.

I tried to distract myself with knowing I had to now go explain it all to Carlisle and find out what he thought we should do, but I couldn't completely stop thinking about Bella.

No matter what happened, no matter who, or what she had become, deep down she will always be my Bella and I will always love her.