Almost Impossible Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Sam continued to stand there and stare at us. The rest of the guys must have left, because I didn't hear them outside anymore. After a few seconds of him apparently thinking, he decided he was ready to talk and walked over to stand in front of me.

"I'm actually surprised you've been able to stop yourself from phasing two times now, seems you've found a way to focus. But I don't want you pushing your luck, you might end up phasing at the wrong time and you could end up... I think you get my point." His voice drifted off.


I couldn't tell who was more uncomfortable here, though I didn't see a need for Sam to be uncomfortable. He should be used to this kind of stuff. Well, I guess maybe since it's me he's telling, that maybe be the cause of it.

I started thinking about the need for him to tell me that and then I thought of Emily and what Sam had unintentionally done to her in one of those moments. My temper was getting so bad; it really wouldn't take much to set me off. I was scared to do it around Jacob; I couldn't image it happening in front of Charlie. Hell, I couldn't imagine it happening at all.

It almost made more sense on why Jacob would have been scared of me, not just scared for me as I had thought before. He may not have wanted to admit it, but if I would have phased then, there was no telling what I could have done. I could have attacked him. Seeing me coming could have made him phase and that would hurt him too. What a mess it all was becoming.

When it came to thinking about phasing more, so many different thoughts came rushing through my head. Thoughts like- what it would feel like, how was it really like being a wolf, and things like how much would I change physically. I'd seen the changes Jake went through and I see how big the rest of the pack is. I could only hope I wouldn't change too much, but I liked the thought of not being weak anymore and hopefully not being so clumsy.

I thought of another thing, one thing I was really curious about now was... Would they be able to hear my thoughts when I phased? Edward couldn't, so maybe they won't be able to either. But before I could really continue thought, someone was talking again.

"So, the next time you feel the urge to... Just do it. I don't know what else to tell you, I mean you already know the rest, and as far as I know, it shouldn't be too different for you. But then again, I really know nothing about this." Sam looked lost for a moment.

When I thought again about phasing, I thought of the other things the guys went through and immediately looked down at my clothes and started laughing. Guess I'm probably going to be clothes shopping more. Ugh. I looked up and saw Sam and Jacob both staring at me.

"Sorry, I was just uh... Thinking about my clothes." They still didn't seem to get it. "Well, from what I've seen with you guys, you seem go through a lot of clothes and shoes. I was just thinking about how much of my clothes I will ruin," I told them, still laughing and they laughed too.

"Yeah, you may want to carry spares around with you, just in case," Sam said.

I suddenly realized I've never heard Sam laugh so much and he has never been this nice to me. Guess things really have changed.

As we stood there laughing, I really hated to ruin the moment with more serious talk. It was nice to be able to laugh about this. I wanted to know more; well actually, I needed to know more. I needed to know why it was happening, now that I knew what it was.

"So, do you know why this is happening? No one has answered that yet. Actually, no one answered the first part either, but I figured that out. Thanks," I said, walking over to sit back on the couch.

Jacob followed and sat next to me. He held my hand, which for some reason seemed weird. Sam went over and sat in a chair across from us, looking serious again.

"We're not positive. As my dad told you, this was in the legends, but no one believed it, which seems really stupid now," Jacob said looking down at our hands. "From what I remember of it, it was something like: the leader of the pack, no specific generation, at any point could imprint on someone who may be able to imprint back on them. The thing with that is the girl wouldn't be one of us, meaning from the rez, and the imprint would actually cause her to turn into a werewolf too. All the details were lost and I may even have it wrong. But, that seems to be what is happening here. You're not from here, and yet it's happening to you." Jacob was completely lost in thought now.

No surprise, but I wasn't understanding it all. It all sounded like a foreign language to me. I'd heard the stories of the legends once before at a bonfire a while back, but this one wasn't included. I wonder if they all had thought it was a joke. Well, I had news for them- it's not.

"That seems to sum it up, well in a way. Again, we're not really sure and it may take a while to figure it all out and have the exact reasons. But as Jake said, that's what's happening, so now we know it's true. Unfortunately, now that it has, well... we're pretty much clueless." Sam looked upset; I could tell he didn't like having something happen that he knew nothing about.

"I thought if it was real, maybe it would have skipped," Jacob said suddenly.

"What?" I asked, shifting a little to the side to look at him. He looked sad again.

"I'm not the Alpha," he said in a soft voice and I knew he was blaming himself again.

I gave his hand a tight squeeze and he looked up at me, showing a slight smile.

"Jake..." I started, but didn't know if I should say anything. I did anyways. "It's in your blood. I don't think it matters who you give up being Alpha to, it's still in you," I told him, looking directly into his eyes. His smile seemed to grow a little.

"You know, you're taking this a lot better than I did," he said, giving my hand a squeeze back.

"Well, I've had time to deal with it first. Of course, I never knew that this might happen, but I knew how and why it did for you and a lot of the other stuff that comes along with it. I guess you can say I had some time to prepare for it all." I laughed a little lightly and looked down at the floor. I didn't know what else to say.

"True." Was all he said.

We both looked up at Sam and he seemed to be thinking again.

"Well, at least maybe that part makes sense," he said and laughed a little, with hardly any humor. "Like I said, we'll have to talk about this some more and see what we can come up with. We'll get together for a meeting tonight to discuss it." He looked up to meet my eyes. "You will be there too." And I gave him a nod.

I was nervous now that I knew I had to phase, not just that I was going to, but that I had to and at a meeting. I would be with the rest of them, all in wolf form. I got a little scared again.

Sam had left after he mentioned the time he wanted us all to get together. Jacob and I just curled up on the couch, trying to find anything else to talk about. That was hard. But it was nice at how natural things seemed to be with us.

"Where'd Billy go?" I asked after we sat in silence a while.

For once, when I wanted someone to talk, talk about anything at all, even the weather if it had to be, neither of us knew what to say. The subject of what was happening seemed to make everything else seem way less important and I tried not to think about other things that I knew I had to deal with sooner or later.

"He's uh, with Charlie," he said and my nerves kicked in. "You know he won't say anything to him."

"Yeah, I know. It's just weird thinking about having to pretend to have things normal. I mean, I'm used to hiding certain things from him of course, but this is about me and that might be harder."

"Yeah, but you have to and I know you can handle it."

He kissed me softly on the cheek and that fiery feeling returned. I twisted to put my feet on the floor. He raised an eyebrow at me and I laughed an obviously nervous laugh.

"I think I should go home for a while," I said trying to change the subject and Jacob seemed to disagree.

"I think you should stay here. At least until we figure out what to do," he said, his tone very serious.

"I know, but Charlie should be home soon and last I remembered the house looks like a mess. I need to take my mind of this for a while and cleaning the house might help. Besides, I know when he gets home he'll be hungry."

"Well..." he tried to argue, but he couldn't. He knew how I was and he understood.

"Ok well, just in case, call me when I need to head back over," I told him while standing up.

"Alright. Actually, I was thinking about maybe coming over later. I was going to ask Sam if we can put if off until Charlie goes to bed. He might get too suspicious if you come back over after dinner for a couple hours after spending all day here."

"Well, we'll see. I don't know if I can sneak out and get the truck started without him hearing. It's not the quietest you know," I said, smiling.

"Yeah, yeah. Well, actually, I was thinking about you just staying home for it and going out-" I knew what he was saying and I wasn't about to phase on my own.

"Jake, I'm not doing this on my own. I mean the first time, I don't want to be alone," I told him, just a little on the verge of panic. Things were happening too fast and I could feel it wearing on me.

"No, of course not. I was going to come over to be with you. We don't always have to be in a group together during meetings and I was thinking about asking Sam that, for at least tonight."

"Ok, well... Let me think about it?" I asked.

"Ok," he said and he smiled.

He reached up and gave me a tight hug, well as tight as he could since he was still hurting and I thought of another problem.

"Uh... You can't phase," I told him and he froze with his arms still around me.

"Damnit! I completely forgot about that. Well damn, I don't know then. So that means I can't go to the meeting." He loosened his arms a little to look at me. Looked like I would have to do this on my own.

"Well, like I said, I'll go home now, get things cleaned up, while you talk to Sam and figure things out. Plus, I think I may want to take a nap now that I think about it." The day had felt so long already.