Almost Impossible Chapter 5

Chapter 5

I think I got maybe another hour of sleep before I heard the phone ringing downstairs. I jumped up and ran down to answer it, actually reaching it in one ring. It was Billy.

"Hey Bella, I'm calling for Jacob. He uh, wanted to stay in bed," he said while laughing.

I wasn't so sure that was the case. I kind of wondered if maybe Jacob was afraid to call, maybe thinking I had changed my mind or something. Hah. Like I could!

"Oh, hey," I replied, still thinking.


"Yeah, he wants to know if you're still coming over today."

I started laughing, and I was kind of surprised by my mood change compared to my mood from about an hour ago.

"Is that it?" I asked, still laughing.

"Yep," he said.

"Ok, well yes I'm still coming over. I just woke up. I'll get ready and I should be there in a little bit," I told him. There was silence for a second. He started to say something then stopped, just barely making a sound.

"Just say it," I said. I knew I wouldn't like it, but I still wanted him to ask.

"Well, it's just..." he started, but paused for a moment. "What about the Cullens?" he asked finally.

I guess maybe I was right when I thought the real reason why Jacob didn't call me himself. Apparently, Billy had the same thoughts. I didn't quite know how to answer him at first.

"Well... Sometimes your heart knows what you truly want and sometimes you let that get away, regretting it later. I'm not."

He seemed to be satisfied with my answer, he laughed lightly and said, "All right. See you in a little bit." Then we both hung up.

I ran upstairs to take a much needed shower and get dressed. The shower took longer that it was supposed to, but the hot water just felt too good. I got dressed fast, almost breaking my dresser in the process. I brushed and blow-dried my hair, once I realizedg it wouldn't ever do what I wanted it to do I gave up and finished getting everything else ready. When I was finally done, I looked up at the clock and it had only been forty-five minutes since Billy had called. I flew downstairs and ran out the door. Forty-five minutes seemed to be too long.

For once, my truck wasn't fast enough for me and that was frustrating. The speed never used to be a problem for me, but for some reason now, I just wanted to drive faster.

When I had finally pulled up to the Blacks' house and walked up to the door, it was already open with Billy behind it.

"Hey Bella. That really was only a little bit," he said laughing.

"Yeah, I guess it was." I was laughing along with him.

He nodded his head in the direction of Jacobs's bedroom and I started walking towards it. I knocked as I opened the door and saw Jacob sitting up on the edge of his bed, looking a lot better than he had yesterday. I smiled and he smiled, a bright beautiful smile, back at me. I walked over to give him a gentle hug.

"I'm not going to break if you hug me tighter Bells," he said in my ear and laughed. He was always making fun of me being weaker than he was. I hugged him tighter and he winced.

"Are you sure about that?" I asked, laughing a little while I pulled away from him. He was rubbing the left side of his stomach- the side that had been crushed.

"Either I am in bad shape or you're getting stronger," he said and laughed again.

I laughed too, but lightly. That had me wondering if maybe I was getting stronger. I shook my head, as if I was trying to shake the thought out before I took that too seriously. All I got was a quick flash of my dresser from earlier.

Jacob's eyes narrowed a little. Apparently, he could tell something was bothering me. I really need to work on hiding my emotions better.

"What's wrong?" he asked, patting the bed next to him.

I sat down, folding my hands and resting them on my lap while looking at them. "Nothing," I lied, but I knew he wouldn't believe me. He shifted a little to face me, bringing one leg up on the bed, folding it under the other. I guess we were going to have my talk now.

"It's just that... Things have been weird since yesterday. Maybe it's just in my head, maybe I'm still just recovering from it all. I don't know," I said and shrugged.

"Maybe, but I don't think you really believe that."

He knew me too well sometimes, and sometimes that was a problem. I didn't know exactly what to say, or how to start saying it. We both just sat in silence for a few minutes.

"Bella, what's really wrong?" he asked, sounding worried.

Suddenly I wasn't so sure I wanted to talk about it anymore. Thinking about it and saying it all out loud were two totally different things and I was sure he would think I was crazy about it all, that I had finally snapped. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that something has definitely changed. I didn't know what exactly it was, or what made it change, but there was no reason to keep denying it anymore. And saying something has changed over and over in my head isn't suddenly going to make it any clearer.

I looked up at him and he was looking directly at me. He raised an eyebrow, as if he was silently asking me to tell him. I sighed and gave in, but didn't look at him.

"Well... I.. We... When we..." I just kept stuttering, I didn't know how to start. Finally after a moment, I got it right. "Just don't laugh at me ok?" I asked, I really didn't need him thinking I was crazier than I already felt. He just smiled.

"When we kissed yesterday, something happened. I don't know what it was, but it's been bugging me." I stopped for a second and without really wanting too, I looked up at him. His face sunk in a little, loosing that happy glow he had before and his lips turned down. All humor was gone and I didn't know what to think about his reaction, so I continued.

"It was so warm and... It was amazing. Really. But it was the feeling during and after. During the kiss... I could almost see what the future could be and it was a future I wanted, a future with us. For a moment, it was like nothing else in the world existed, nothing but you. I opened my eyes a little and it was like everything was a blur and the only thing I could see clearly, was you. In that same moment I felt like I was sort of being detached, or being torn away from something and then it was like I was attached again to something and it was you. It's really hard to explain, but it was sort of like a weight pulling me down, yet lifting me too, I don't know, it's just weird. It was like these invisible chains were connecting us and I haven't felt the same since."

Just as I had feared, he laughed at me. But it wasn't the kind of ‘you're crazy kind of laugh.' It was more of a nervous kind. My head started buzzing with a million different thoughts, but was interrupted by a sound of something like glass breaking in the direction of the kitchen, or maybe farther away. I couldn't tell. I turned my head quickly to face the sound. Jacob did too, but instead of focusing on the sound, he was looking at me curiously and that confused me.

"You heard that too?" he asked quietly. I didn't get why he was asking me that question since it was kind of obvious I did.

"Well, yeah," I answered.

"That was pretty far away," he said, adding an even more curious tone.

"Wasn't that in or right outside the kitchen?" I asked.

"No, it was out in the front yard," he said.

That didn't really make any sense. Why was it such a big deal that I heard something break? I was only getting more and more confused instead of finally getting things cleared up. I shrugged and decided to continue the conversation.

"Why did you look so nervous when I told you all that?" I asked and he looked even more nervous than before. "What?"

He laughed again, but this time it was the ‘you're crazy' laugh. I could feel my face tighten and my lips were in a straight line. I was just waiting now for him to tell me I was. After I let him laugh it off for a few minutes, then he finally spoke.

"It's just, that's what they say it feels like when you imprint, or something very close to that anyways."

My head stared swarming with thoughts again. I didn't know what he was saying or what he meant. I just kind of shook my head.

He looked down at his hands and explained.

"That's what they say imprinting is like. Detached feelings then followed by sort of reattaching to the person who is supposed to be like your "soul mate". The whole world is turned around to revolve around that one person." He paused for a moment, deep in thought and I froze completely. After a minute he finally continued. "Also, any feelings you might have had for someone else suddenly don't matter as much. Everything is focused on the one your heart truly belongs too. The one person you would do anything for."

I was still frozen, staring at the wall. I could feel Jacob looking at me, watching my reaction. I thought about Edward and it kind of made sense in an even more confusing sort of way. Had I imprinted? And suddenly I started laughing.

Jacob jumped and made a groaning sound.

"Sorry. Didn't mean to scare you." I said, still laughing. "Are you ok?"

"Shouldn't I be asking you that?" he asked, surprising me and I stopped laughing. I thought about that for a moment, didn't really have anything to say to that, so I just asked the first question that had popped into my head.

"So, what... I imprinted?" I started laughing again, more hysterically than before, even rolling around a little on the bed. That was quite possibly the funniest thing I have never heard. "Is that even possible? I thought that was just a wolf thing." I just kept laughing while I lay backwards on his bed, staring at the ceiling, trying to calm down.

I glanced over at Jacob and he was just staring at the space where my face had been, obviously lost in thought once again.

I started thinking about all the other things that were bugging me, well maybe not bugging me, but things that made no sense at all. I started adding them up using my fingers.

"Speed, I guess hearing too..." I remembered not needing a blanket last night because I was hot, though I knew it was supposed to be freezing. I also remembered almost ripping my dresser drawer out when I tugged on it to open. It was usually so hard to open and I had almost broken it. "heat, strength... Oh and I guess the other thing too, those feelings... hmm... And the vision..." I stopped, not really adding it all up just yet, when I realized that Jacob was staring at me.

I laughed a little. "What?" I asked.

He looked like he had a million things to say, but instead he asked, "Vision?"

"Oh yeah. I had talked to Alice after I went back to their house before I had to go home. After everything had happened, I asked her if she could tell me what she saw in my future and she said, ‘nothing.'"

His eyes widened. I narrowed my eyes a little in confusion, but I just looked back up at the ceiling.

"I guess I really had made up my mind before I'd known it," I added.

I thought that would help his ease his reaction some, but it didn't and it made me even more curious. After a moment, I thought about what Alice had said again, and the way she said ‘Nothing.' She sounded worried and she also looked nervous. Not in the way that she might have been, apparently knowing who I had chosen, but in a way that there was something that she really didn't even understand.

I really didn't think much about that until now. Maybe she could have somehow seen something else. I wished, more than ever, that there was a way I could see what Alice had seen.