Chapter 6
After a while, when Jacob didn't say anything, I excused myself to the bathroom; the silence was getting to be way too much. But, while I was in there, I heard Jacob walk into the living. I stopped before opening the bathroom door and I could hear him talking to his dad about the conversation we had just had. I was mad. That was supposed to be personal and he's just going to blurt it out like that? Before I could really get too mad, I could tell something was wrong. It was their tones and it made me really nervous. They sounded almost scared.
I made a big scene of opening the door, just in case they wouldn't have noticed me otherwise. I tried to look at anything but them. I was worried they would know I heard them, but they already knew. Billy was looking at me with wide eyes. I sighed and kind of stomped my way back into Jacob's room, plopping back down on his bed. I wait for him to come back, but he didn't. Instead it was Billy who came in.
He wheeled himself in so he was in front of me, facing me. I twisted awkwardly to face him, though I knew I wouldn't want him to see my reaction to anything he was about to say. I had a problem lately with people reading more into them than I had wanted them too.
"I'm sorry we were talking about you like that," he said, still looking shocked. "I'm also sorry you're going through such a... odd time."
I didn't know what to say. 'Odd time' seemed to cover it all right, but I didn't understand how it was his fault. I didn't know what to say, so I just sat still and listened.
"Jacob was just telling me about what you told him. We don't exactly know what to say about it, though it sure is something," he said, adding a nervous laugh. "There have been certain things mentioned in the legends, something similar, but they were never taken seriously. No one who would know anything about this is still alive. I guess, with everything else, no one really believed something like this could really happen."
I just sat there frozen, still listening, but not sure I believed it. They had heard of something like this? What was this anyways? I still didn't talk.
"How have you felt?" he asked suddenly.
"Well, um... Besides weird? I've noticed quite a few things that aren't normal for me." I thought for a moment about everything I had added up earlier. "Well, first there was when I knew something was wrong with Jacob, I ran faster than I have ever been able to run. Then there was the fact that I didn't need a blanket for the first time last night. I don't really know if that's anything though." I added a laugh, though I didn't find anything very funny anymore.
"Also, this morning when you had called, the phone woke me up. I've never been able to hear it loudly enough to wake me up before. Even when I'm awake sometimes I can't hear it from downstairs. Um, I also almost broke my dresser this morning when I yanked on the drawer; I usually have a hard time opening that drawer. Oh yeah, the vision Alice had. She said she saw nothing when she looked at my future. Thought that wasn't really anything, considering how I was feeling at the time, she wouldn't see anything if I had chosen to be with Jacob. But it was her reaction to it that I still don't understand." I told him every little detail I could think of.
He seemed suddenly very serious and that only made me feel worse. I think I would have preferred them laughing at me and thinking I was crazy. I was somewhat hoping they would tell me that this was just a cruel joke they were playing on me and that they were just going along with what I was saying. But it wasn't and they weren't. They were too serious and that scared the shit out of me.
I don't normally curse like that, but this was really scary. They were actually making it sound like I was becoming a werewolf. I started laughing a little bit once I had thought of that, but Billy was so serious that it knocked the laughter right out of me. I was suddenly terrified.
It was at that moment that I knew that was what he wasn't saying. I had no idea what to say or what to do. What does a person do in a situation like this?
Jacob walked into the room at that moment and sat next to me, but I didn't look at him, I couldn't take my eyes off the wall in front of me. He put his arm around me and I leaned into him, feeling just a little more comforted than before. Billy wasn't talking anymore and Jacob leaned in closer to me.
"I felt the same way during that kiss," he whispered very softly.
I jumped back away from him a little, almost standing up. His eyes opened so wide I thought they would pop out. I couldn't even talk.
"What? I figured you would be happy to hear that," he said, now looking confused.
"Why didn't you tell me that before?" I shouted at him.
He looked surprised again. "Well, I was planning on it. That was why I was impatient about you coming over today, but then when something was obviously wrong with you, I let you tell me first. And well, that was big news coming from you. Really big. Everything I wanted to say just kind of slipped my mind," he said loudly, but not shouting like I was. After a minute, he went back to his normal tone. "I'm sorry, I really should have told you right after you said all that, but-" and he didn't finish.
Billy had left during that little conversation and I barely noticed. I was still stunned by all this and still didn't know what it all really meant. I couldn't even think coherently so I knew it was best to keep my mouth shut. Nothing made sense anymore; everything I thought might have at one point, just suddenly changed. The world was definitely not how it used to be. This was all so unexpected, obviously more than unexpected, it was almost impossible. It was almost impossibly impossible. Again, like I said, nothing made sense anymore.
While we both just sat in silence I was actually thinking that maybe I had really lost my mind, finally snapped. I tried convincing myself that I was imagining all of this, or that I had somehow managed to slip into an alternate universe. A universe that somehow allows me, without anything in my DNA to cause it, to become a werewolf.
I was ok with knowing vampires and werewolves. Hell, I even wanted to become a vampire. That was easy, one bite. But this? Becoming a werewolf was supposed to be in their blood, how was I becoming one? How was any of this possible? Suddenly a thought crossed my mind that kind of freaked me out a little. If this is all really happening, why haven't I phased yet? And that was the last thing I clearly remembered.
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